Dear Abigail,
Our life together was so special. We went so many places together! You even went to the beach with us! We loved you so much before we ever knew we were going to be blessed to be your mommy and daddy and we prayed for you all the time. The day we found out about you was so exciting! We couldn't keep you a secret for long! And the day we found out you were a little girl was so special. We could tell you looked just like Daddy right away, even in our ultrasound pictures of you. You were so beautiful!! I remember the very first time we felt you kick! And you never stopped! You woke me up many nights. And I loved every minute of it. I thanked the Lord every time I felt you move. We knew right away what a spunky little girl you were. You showed us that you could kick and squirm even without any fluid surrounding you. You even did a flip! You were such a fighter and so strong! The doctor who took care of you in the hospital said you were the feistiest baby she had ever met! You had so much spirit, determination, and you were so full of life. I was scheduled to have a c-section at 34 weeks with you since you didn't have any fluid around you and because you turned breech at the last minute. We were SO excited to meet our baby girl! I remember one of the first things the doctor said when she pulled you out was how fat your little legs were! One of the nurses came over and told me that you weighed 5 lb and 9 oz, and that you looked just like Daddy. I was so happy to hear what a big girl you were! And you had so much blond hair, and blue eyes. They let me see you for just a minute before they took you to the nicu. You were squirming and looking around with your beautiful bright eyes. I am so thankful for that moment. I couldn't wait to spend time with you. The first time we got to touch you, we couldn't stop going on about how precious you were and how you had the softest skin we had ever felt. The night you were born, Daddy stayed up all night sitting next to you, praying for you. I stayed up the whole night too, praying for you and begging the Lord to let us have you. Daddy sent me pictures of you and kept me posted on how you were doing. Not a moment has gone by for the past nine and a half months that I have not thought about you. I am so thankful for the time we had together and that God chose ME to be your mama. I will miss you every day for the rest of my life. Things will never be the same without you. Our hearts are so broken. We ache to hold you and take care of you. God has given me a love for you that I have never known. Abigail, you have changed not only our lives, but the lives of so many. You have made us better people. We are clinging to God and His plan. We know He is in control and that your life, though brief on this earth, had so much purpose! He knew you before He created you and your days were written down before one of them came to be. We love to think about how the first words you uttered were words of praise to Jesus! We so look forward to the day Jesus returns, or we go home, when we will all be together again forever! We are so thankful that Christ has conquered death for us! Abigail Grace, I love you with my whole heart!

Mama