I think if I would be more concerned with God's glory than my own relief, I might get some relief from my pain as a result. I know I am still her mommy, but one of the things I have struggled with is not being able to actively play the role of Abigail's mommy. Not only did a part of myself die with Abigail, but also my hopes and dreams of being her mama. It leaves me feeling like I have no purpose. If I would concern myself more with His glory, I know my sense of purpose would return. He has left me here for a reason. I have to remember that "the reason we breathe is to sing of His glory." I want to honor Abigail's life as much as possible by honoring Him.
Not to us, O Lord, not to us but to your name be the glory, because of your love and faithfulness.